Wednesday, 11 January 2017

Ending The Silence

Well it has been a while....

I haven't posted a blog post in a very long time and i'm going to be completely honest as to why....

I have always tried to remain very true to the reason I write since I created this blog.

I write from my heart and I write to be as honest with the people that read this as possible. 

There's no use in me making a fantasy of my life that will try to make others jealous because, quite simply life isn't like that. It's full of challenges, it's full of extreme highs and extreme lows and ever since my last post I feel like I did hit an extreme low.

My life kind of entered a hurricane of change. It all happened very suddenly and it's left a path of uncertainty that lies ahead of me. 

I moved out of my flat, I moved ages away from home and my boyfriend left the country to go away for his job. 

All this was happening whilst I was trying desperately to figure out just what the hell to do with my life when, at the time, I didn't have any potential performing job prospects and to be stuck in a job I hate is just never going to happen with me. 

I refuse to let that happen.

Not only that but this is all happening over the Christmas period which is one of the most stressful times of the year....we should probably actually petition to re-write that song to: 


I think it's got a certain ring to it...

So I just felt like my head and heart was all over the place and I just lost touch with this blog. 

I don't want this blog to be a place of me moaning about my life. I want people to read my posts and feel enlightened, motivated, driven, inspired and that they are not alone in the way that they feel.

I'm just a human with a laptop, an internet connection and a lot to say...just like most of us.

And so, moving forward, now it is 2017.

You see it written all over the place that supposedly 2016 was a completely awful year for the majority of us. 

To be honest I had a fucking phenomenal year up until the very last quarter. 

But it's a new year. I have a new job with possible prospective jobs in the pipeline and I am on my own in a strange environment that I have never experience before. 

And I am okay. 

I am out of my slump and I am starting to feel okay. 

The way I got out of it is to just think....fuck it...

I could be stuck in a completely horrific situation. I still get to wake up and say that I love my job. I have a roof over my head, I am healthy, I get paid, I get so many things that in day to day life a lot of us would take for granted because it's not the "ideal" that we want.

Yes. I'm not in the "ideal" situation that I want to be in, but that doesn't mean that everything is terrible. 

In fact, I plan to use this feeling to motivate me to get exactly what I want out of life. 

You can either choose to sit in a spiralling downfall of misery and continue to let life swallow you whole, or you can grab life by the horns and ride that bitch in the direction that you want to go.

You can steer your life in whatever direction you want. 

It's taken me a lot of phone calls with my greatest friends, a lot of tears and a lot of wine (not the best solution but..oh well) but I am starting to feel extremely positive and motivated for 2017.

I'm only 24. My life is only just beginning and I plan to make it a story that I will be proud to tell anyone who wishes to listen to me.